should & could have lost =)

hahz... Hav lost her... don wanna lose any1 i love again!
i could hav lost her...
i should hav lost my love...
i should hav 4gotten her!
i could hav hated her...
but, of coz... i cnt

hope i will 4get her sum day!
i will definately try to hate,leave her...
her place in my heart will slowly fade...
if it's my destiny for her to leave me,
i should accept reality!
4eva wan to 4get our past
our happy memories!
i shall let FATE decide!
i will accept wadeva FATE & DESTINY
made... i will lose her, or hate her
i will b happy if tat day will come.
if we're fated, i will b un-happy happy...
feelings 4 her muz change!
i hav to step out of reality!
if not, my heart will nvr fall in love eva again!

Sayonara~ for now...